Long Time No See

I haven't updated forever, which sucks because quite a bit has been going on.  I'll try to keep this short.

I'm going through gastric bypass approval stuff for my new insurance company.  I just had an EKG, which was normal, but now I need a chest x-ray, drug test, thyroid test, and another meeting with a surgeon and a month supervised dieting with a nutritionist.  Can I get this done by winter break?  I'm not holding my breath.

I got a new job at Younkers working the Lancome counter.  My first day was Wednesday.  It was actually kind of fun, but my back was KILLING me.  Toward the end of my shift I had to sit down, so I went over to one of the makeover chairs.  As soon as I sat my right hip and lower back went into spasm.  I thought I was going to collapse, but I just clenched the shit out of my teeth.  There was a customer I should have helped, but I couldn't move and couldn't talk, so I pretended I didn't see her.

I went to my family doctor and talked to her about my back again.  I'm already on an anti-inflammatory/analgesic, but it's not cutting the mustard.  I asked for something for the pain, but she just told me to stretch and gave me a referral for physical therapy.  I'm going to take advantage of the physical therapy, but I had to go to another doctor to get pain killers.  I'm not sure why she won't give any to me, but I can't function like this.  Thank goodness I got something from the other doctor. I go back in a month, and if I'm still having issues he'll refer me to a back surgeon to get an MRI and possibly an epidural.  I've already had to miss school activities because of the pain.  I don't want to miss work, especially when I just started.

My back has done this since I was in middle school.  I was dragged by a horse when I was 6, and since then I've been fucked up.  This has kind of been a pattern.  My back does alright, then something aggravates it.  I get pain killers, anti-inflammatories, and do physical therapy, then it gets better.  I already know 3 of my discs are degenerating and bulging.  I go to the chiropractor once a week, but since I'm SO GODDAMN FAT, I'm fighting a losing battle.  This isn't going to get better until I lose weight.

My hot flashes have been HORRIBLE lately.  When I was sitting in the doctor's office, I swear it was 80 degrees.  I had to wait for quite awhile and by the time my appointment was over, I had sweated through my jeans and through the paper on the table.  How embarrassing.