Ruby

Lately I've been slack on my calorie counting and wearing the body bug.  I had the body bug on too tight one night and it left this weird rash on the floppy fat under my arm, so wearing it was uncomfortable.  I took 2 days off from wearing it, but have it back on again.
I've been writing down my calories pretty religiously, but lately I either don't write it down, or I just estimate.  Estimating always gets me in trouble.  I always underestimate how much I'm eating.  So I need to get my ass back into gear, watching portions and doing legitimate counting.
I've not been slacking on exercise though, as you might have seen in the last post.  I've been taking Nathan with me for walks around Gray's lake.  He bought some new winter gear and a kick ass MP3 player, so we can bundle up and jive around the lake together.
I didn't go around the lake today, but I did plenty of walking around the neighborhood, enough for me to burn 3100 calories and have a grand total of 1 hour 30 minutes of activity.
I need to do the resistance band workout and try to step up the resistance.

Per Dee's suggestion, I've been watching Ruby on Netflix.  It's a show about a 477 pound woman who's struggling to get her weight down before she dies from obesity. She works out with a trainer and has a nutritionist that has her on these prepackaged meals called Hourglass.  She is only allowed 1700 calories a day, (eventually they increased it to 2100), with 3 meals and 2 snacks.  She's having a hell of a time sticking to the prepackaged stuff, but she's doing it, and she's lost 120 pounds so far.  Even when she goes out to restaurants, she has to have those meals with her, so she doesn't order what's on the menu.
Watching her dedication made me realize I'm being too wishy washy with my counting.  "Oh, I'll try to stay at 1800, but I guess it's fine if I do 2200," or, "I've counted everything so far today, I don't need to count this restaurant food."
No.  No sir.  That is a slippery slope.  Time to be much more stringent.

Also, I thought I'd lost 5 pounds a couple weeks ago.  Turns out it was just water weight or something, because I'm back up to 255.  I find this discouraging.  But I suppose it's just part of my estrogen being ridiculously low.

I'm starting to think more seriously about lap band surgery.  I'm not going to jump on it right away, but if I cash in my old 401k, I can pay off my car and my hospital bill and a credit card.  This would lessen my debt substantially and a lap bad procedure would be more feasible.
Whether this was fate or not, I got a newsletter from Mercy Medical that featured a bunch of women that had great success with their lap band procedure.  I really do see this in my future.