What the hell is wrong with me???
I've been really diligent with my calorie counting. If something is super high in calories, I avoid it or just eat half of it, but lately I've been horrible. I just want to eat junk food, and only junk food. If someone put a salad in front of me right now, I'd pee on it.
On Friday, I burned 3200 calories, but ate 4100. FOUR THOUSAND CALORIES!!!!!!!! Jesus H Christ!! I tried to make up for it on Saturday. I ate 2000 calories and burned 3900, so I made up for all the excess calories I ate. But still, what the hell has gotten into me? Maybe it's stress or depression from not having a job. I don't know. I don't want to make excuses. Today, so far, I've eaten a piece of cake and a big cookie. I had a sandwich at 2am, so the total so far is 1600-1700. So what the hell am i gonna do the rest of the day for food? Answer? Tuna. And I'm going to need to burn more calories. Boxing, walking, resistance bands, some of them, all of them. I feel like a failure. I may not be losing weight right now, but I sure as hell don't want to gain anymore.
About Me
- Fatbutt McGee
- A menopausal 30 year old, over two years after hysterectomy, struggling with body changes and weight gain.
I'm sorry Tiffy. =( Are you avoiding all junk food? You might be wanting to eat nothing but junk food if you're avoiding it completely. I'd calorie count and partition enough room each day for at least one junk food item, but only keep it at one (or something like, one or two things if it's small stuff). Keep up the good will power!!
ReplyDeleteDitto on what Tessa said!! And don't eat just tuna, you should still be eating meals, not just 1 healthy food. No starving! that makes you more likely to binge!
ReplyDeleteLURV YOU!!
I gotta have my salt/crunch fix .. so I treat myself to 1 oz (yeah, one lousy ounce) of Lays potato chips. In weight watchers, that is 4 points. It's a huge waste of points, but like Tessa says .. make room for what you love in the junk food category.
ReplyDeleteGoll good luck sweetie. It's not easy. I, too, have been eating a lot of junk food. But, tomorrow is a new day, and I plan on being good. Let's both do it .. tomorrow. Deal? ♥