It All Makes Sense Now

I had my phone consult with my Kansas City doctor and some weird things I had noticed suddenly made a lot of sense.  Lately I've not been able to sleep, I've been generally sad, my palsy has been TERRIBLE, and my heart has been beating really fast and hard.  (That's what she said).  Like, when I lay down to sleep I can feel it pounding like crazy.  I figured it was just a fat thing, but my thyroid levels have gone WAY up.  I've been on the same dose for awhile, but for whatever reason it's all jacked up now so I have to decrease the dose.
My estrogen is in the crapper again.  It's back down to post menopausal levels.  That one is no mystery.  AND NO ONE YELL AT ME FOR THIS BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW HOW STUPID IT IS.  I've been avoiding refilling meds as much as possible.  There are some that I can't go without for long without getting really sick, so I've been taking them like, every other day so I don't have to refill them as often.  The one I've been neglecting most is my estrogen.  I told the doctor and he said what I expected him to say.  "Take your estrogen!"  I know, I know.  So I need to call the pharmacy and have it mailed to me so I don't have to drive clear out to Johnston.
It's always so easy to tell when my estrogen is tanking.  My hot flashes get infinitely worse.

My horrific yeast infection is better I think.  Although it got a lot worse before it got better.  I finished my 7 day probiotic treatment and am now just taking regular probiotics.  The infection was under my bottom belly roll in addition to my vag, so I was feeling gross and miserable all around.
The comfrey hydrosol from prairieland herbs was a big help for the belly.  I'm finding a lot of their stuff to be useful in caring for this heap of shit that houses my organs.  The comfrey spray helped clear up the belly thing, the lemon balm spray is getting rid of my canker sore and taking the swelling way down, (my muscle relaxers give me bad dry mouth, which gives me canker sores).  I ordered a bigger bottle so I can use it as a sort of mouth rinse.  It also helped with my cold sore.  It never crusted over or oozed, and it never got any bigger than an eraser head.  So shout out to Prairieland Herbs.  I use their Wise Woman cream for my face since it gets so dry and had Squirt and Mom try the 3 citrus face cream.  My mom is in love with it now and likes how she knows what all the ingredients are.  Of course I religiously use their rosemary mint body powder, which really does last all day and keeps my sweat smell down.  Anything else of theirs I can plug?   Mmm, nope, I think that's it.  Oh wait, their lotion bars (solid lotion in a deodorant stick) are great for after swimming.  They're good at keeping the chlorine itch down.

I finished my last fat class tonight, so all of my requirements for gastric bypass have been met.  The only hurdle left is getting insurance to approve it.  I kept hearing horror stories from other people at the classes and it's got me worried.  When it comes to insurance, I think I should get special treatment. I feel like the entire insurance world should revolve around ME, and give ME what I want.  And I don't, not even for a second, find that selfish.  Those ultra rich mother fuckers can MORE than afford to cover me and every other sick person.  SO DO IT.  I swear to little baby Jesus, if they try to get in my way, I'm going to stomp someone's trachea.  I've given them roughly $5,000 this year for COBRA.  And it's not all of my money.  It's money from a whole goddamn team of people because IT COSTS SO MUCH.  This is your warning Blue Cross/Blue Shield of Arkansas.  Let me have my life back or I will tear you down, piece by mother fucking piece.