Pathetic

Yesterday was...  a day.  Nathan was having a Batman party with a couple of his buddies at the apartment yesterday, starting at 11 am.  I used to work with both of the guys at Iowa Telecom, and I was so embarrassed about the way I look and how much weight I've gained since then that I left the apartment in the morning and didn't come back until both guys were gone, around midnight.  My self loathing got me out of the apartment, but for a really pathetic reason.

I did a double red donation at the blood center with Sara in the morning, then I went to the dentist to see what the deal is with my godawful tooth pain.  They couldn't find anything.  Great.  And the pain has been so bad the past couple of days that it's triggered a couple of really bad migraines.  The dentist's best guess was my nerves are flared up from clenching.  she could see grooves in my teeth from me biting down so hard at night.  She thought there might be a crack, but she couldn't see one. She was also tapping on my other teeth and found the whole right side of my mouth was super sensitive.  Sooo, no help there.  I'm just supposed to take 800 mg of Ibuprofen 4 times a day to help with the nerve inflammation and wear my new mouth guard every night.  And I'm getting my teeth cleaned Tuesday.  Yippee.  At least I didn't have to pay anything for the visit because....

I FINALLY GOT MY NEW INSURANCE CARD!  After the dentist I went to the bariatric center so they could make a copy and submit a new request.  Pulling out of the driveway I burst into tears.  I'm scared and hopeful.  But more scared.  My unemployment is going to run out in about a month, and I REALLY didn't want to job hunt while being so fat.  Now I'm not going to have a choice.  Also I'm not sure how this is going to work out with me being a full time student.  I suck at juggling stuff like this, and I'm so easily stressed out nowadays.  Maybe if I could find something easy like data entry.

Anyway, after that I went to Sara's and hung out until midnight.  Sara and Chris, her bf, went to The Dark Knight Rises, so I chilled out and watched TV.  My tooth was hurting pretty bad and my eyes wouldn't quit watering and my nose was all stuffed up.  I thought it was allergies or something, but it was a migraine.  It started at, like, 7:30 pm and just kept getting worse.  I sent Nathan a text at 11 asking if his friends were gone yet, but one was still there, so I stayed at Sara's until I got a text from Nathan at midnight saying everyone was gone.  The pain in my head was so bad I started crying on the way home and could barely see the road.  All was well after I got home and got a migraine pill in my system.  Lord.