Sleeping Ugly

Having a toothache is not interesting at all, but I've had one for 3 days now that has become UNBEARABLE.  I clench my teeth at night so I'm used to jaw pain, but this is insane.  Maybe I'm the only one that does this, but when I think something is wrong with one of my teeth I start obsessively feeling the others with my tongue.  The tooth right above the one that's killing me feels cracked in the back and is also quite sore.  I'm sure I've fucked my mouth up by not wearing a mouth guard.  I had one several years ago but I can't remember why I quit wearing it.  All I remember is I bit holes through it.  I still have it.  I pulled it out hoping it was still wearable, but it's all yellow and crusty now, and I'm not about to put anything in my mouth that can be described by those adjectives.  

I spent 70 bucks on a moldable mouth guard on Amazon.  It fits just over the front teeth and you have to boil it and then put it over your teeth to make an impression.  It's pretty comfortable, but I look utterly ridiculous right now with this bulky thing on my teeth and my CPAP mask on.  

I'm going to call the dentist tomorrow morning to see if I can get in.  I fucking hate dentists.  It doesn't even have anything to do with the procedures they do.  I don't mind getting my teeth cleaned or having cavities filled.  It's the way dentists' offices are run that makes me angry enough to not go regularly.  If you have to have work done beyond just an annual cleaning you have to meet a fucking deductible, which can be hundreds of dollars, and they always demand payment up front.  With the exception of dentists, every doctor I've ever been to lets you make payments.  Fuck you, dentists.  Fuck you.  

I should be getting my new insurance card in the mail this week, so I can resubmit my request for gastric bypass.  It's Mom's policy and I can be on it as long as I'm a full time student.  They sent a letter a couple of days ago saying my previous coverage made me exempt from pre-existing conditions, so I should be good.  If they cover it without a fight I can use my indiegogo money for the portion insurance doesn't cover and cost of follow up care.  I had to pay 2 grand for my hysterectomy, which I just recently paid off.  Huzzah.  I don't know how much I'd be saddled with for bypass, but I'm sure I'll probably have to have skin removal sometime in the future.  Who knows.  I'd like to have it done on my arms.  I've always hated my arms.  They seem to take the biggest beating from fluctuations in my weight and right now the skin is so thin it bruises and tears really easily.  It doesn't help that it's really saggy and just sort of gets in the way, making it susceptible to pinching.  

Anyway, it would be nice to have a money cushion for that.  From what I've read, insurance doesn't usually pay for that because it's considered cosmetic.  Whatever.  Suck a dick, insurance.