Don't Worry

Don't worry everyone, I'm still fat, and I'm still menopausal.

I'm staying at Trudy's for awhile, like 3 months, to look after her cats.  There's not really much to do and I keep finding myself eating out of boredom.  Sometimes I behave and have a can of tuna.  Sometimes I'm bad and eat a box of hoho's.  At least this house has stairs, so I'm forced to go up and down or pee and poop in my pants.  I'm just so bored when I'm here.  I sit on the couch all day and watch TV.  I should be out walking, but I'm a piece of shit.
Since I have nothing to do I paint my nails a lot.  I'm working on a line of superhero colors, which involves layering different colors and sparkles.  Yesterday I did a blue color I called superman.  I did them again tonight in a green/aqua color.  I'm not sure whether I should call this one the green lantern or aquaman.  I'm leaning toward aquaman.  I continue to wonder why I bother when people won't even notice how sexy my nails are because the rest of me looks like a wad of lumpy cookie dough in a pillow case.

I keep boiling up at night and waking up all gross and sweaty.  It's giving me yeast infections.  I'm not looking forward to full fledged summer heat.

I am looking forward to June though!  Why you ask?  I'm going to join the Y and start back up with water aerobics.  I'm waiting until June because that's when I'm done commuting to Grinnell.
I'm pretty stoked.  I did water aerobics when I lived in Newton and it was always the highlight of my day.  I love the water.  It's like, the perfect workout for me.  My body stays nice and cool, I get a great workout, and it's easy on my joints.  I like going for walks, but goddamnit, my ankle, back, and knees really bug me.  When I did water aerobics in Newton I lost 25 pounds.  I don't imagine I'll lose any weight, but damnit I'll feel better.  The class is at 6 pm, which also suits my love of the night.  Seems like a win/win for me.  The only thing that would suck is I'd be going by myself.  In Newton I had a dedicate workout partner, Charity from work.  We kept each other motivated.

While I've got insurance I'd like to go see my doctor and start a doctor supervised diet.  My motive behind this is prepping for a lap band, since you have to do 6 months of doctor supervised dieting, but if by some small chance I actually lose weight doing it, then that's something.

I've been avoiding weighing myself for a long time, but I grew some balls tonight and did it at my mom's.  I'm not too worked up over it.  It was 265, but, as demonstrated in the past, my dumb body fluctuates about 50-10 pounds.  It's possible I may have gained a couple, but whatever.  I did it in the afternoon, and I'm always heavier then.  My clothes all still fit the same.