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A menopausal 30 year old, over two years after hysterectomy, struggling with body changes and weight gain.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Try Failing A Little More

I passed all of my summer classes with 2 A's and 2 B's, so that's not what I'm talking about.

I have been
SO
DEPRESSED
And I am an utter failure at life.

I haven't had any Ambien in at least 2 weeks.  I accidentally missed my appointment in July, and either I forget to reschedule, or something is up with the office.  Last time I called their computers were down so they asked me to call again.  Since I haven't had it my sleep has gotten super fucked up and I miss office hours, even if I set my alarm.  Yesterday I fell asleep at 8 am and woke up at 8 pm, but in my defense, I had a migraine.  Although the migraine was significantly less horrific.  My eyes didn't swell or anything and the pain was bearable, so I didn't bother taking an imitrex.

I don't have any ambition to do anything.  Not even make phone calls.  I'd just lay perfectly still 24 hours a day if I didn't have so many hot flashes and a need to roll over to let parts of my dry/cool off.

The only way I can describe it is kind of like this.

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