The Fatty Bug

I would like to start this post off by saying thank you to my friends.  You're all very supportive, and I'm grateful for each of you.  You spoil me with your love.
A very special thank you goes out to Sara, Dee and Tessa.  They all chipped in to get me this BodyBugg, which is a little calorie counting device that tells you how many calories you've burned through the day.  There's also a web program that goes along with it so you can track how many calories you have to burn to meet your weight goals, and helps you track what you've eaten.
I got this little guy last night and it was the first time I've felt any real hope toward losing weight.

So, now it's time for me to gripe.
In the web program, I put in the kinds of food I like to eat and my height and weight and weight loss goal.  I put in there my sedentary life style/job, and that I do moderate exercise 3-5 days a week, which I think was listed under "fair" activity.  There was... I think... none, very light, light, fair, moderate, heavy, very heavy.  Those last couple were for manual laborer types that did lots of athletic training.
With my various body stats and my goal of losing 1 and a half pounds a week, I'm supposed to eat around 2300 calories and burn 2900 a day.  Now, granted I'm not doing this exactly as directed, I'm getting pissed off and discouraged right now.
The directions say to only take the armband off for an hour each day, and you should sleep with it on if possible.
That hour is supposed to give you time to shower and such since this thing isn't waterproof.
I am not sleeping with it on.  I'll crush it.  So I went to bed at 5am and got up at noon today, did my business, and put it on as I was walking out the door, which was at 1pm.  It's now 6:30pm and I've only burned..... 800 calories.  I've eaten 1300.  I was trying to hold off, but my stomach felt like it was eating itself around 5ish, so I got some Subway.
How am I supposed to burn 2900 calories when I just sit here for 8 hours a day???  It's no wonder I've packed on so much weight.  This little device is really making me feel accountable for my body.  I can't just sit here and say, "well, it must be from the surgery."
Granted, I'm pretty sure that has played a role, however big or small, but I was probably putting away maybe 3000 calories or more a day, with regular meals and junk food binges.
I'm so disgusted with myself.  I just feel sick.
I know I'm not the only one that's been through this, but jesus, why does it have to be so daunting?
Obviously the key is to ramp up my activity level and try eating less than 2300 calories, so that goal can some day be a reality.

By the way, I'm at 812 calories.  I should probably ad a couple hundred more since I didn't have this thing on until this afternoon.

I started doing resistance bands again.  I only have the ones to do arms.  I need an O ring and a figure 8 band to do the exercises for my legs.  I've tried to substitute other stuff, or wrap up the long bands, but it doesn't seem to work very well, so I'd rather just have the right bands.  (If anyone is interesting in helping me with this, I've put a set of bands on my Amazon wish list *wink wink*).
Resistance training is supposed to be the golden child of calorie burning activities, since you burn more calories at rest when your muscles aren't flabby and sad.  So my goal is to do weight stuff twice a week, give my body recovery time and get in upper and lower body, and then do cardio stuff at least 3 additional days a week.  I've always liked walking, and it should be relatively easy to do at least an hour a night.  I've got a kick ass walking mix put together.
I want to use my heavy bag more, but the gays upstairs get pissed when I do it after 11pm, and I HATE getting up to workout.  I'm not completely awake, and I'm crabby.  The last thing I want to do is work out.  I'm usually all kinds of pissed off at the end of the day and need to destress when I get home, so that's just a better time for me and I can be more intense with the workout.
I wonder if wrapping some bedding foam around it would deaden the sound.  I'll have to try it.

In the meantime, I'm taking advantage of these slow, boring periods at work to go across to the other building at work and go up and down the 4 flights of stairs.  It gets my heart rate up and makes my back feel better, since it just kills me when I sit in these office chairs forever and my ass gets numb.

850 calories burned.